i have not been here for three years, have i? holy shit. lol.
that's very unfortunate considering i rally don't post anything here at all or have done so since like my senior year of high school.

shit happens man. happy three years of doing nothing to me i suppose.

peaces.

this guy came into my new job and recognized me from my previous job at the cd (or i guess record) store. i told him i felt my current job was probs the best place to dissapear off to, to clean my slate..vanish? he told me there's no way you can hide without someone finding you in this county.

..i thought it was kinda funny..in an awkward way.

making ringtones.
painted my room last week.
new job.
new life.
nyc later today.
school is starting soon.

i miss my color'd hair.
i want a bass guitar.
a keytar.
a puppy.
=]

other than that, iunno.

whoops.

oi ocha= bueno.

i kinda wanna sleep. u_u

peaces.

hewwo. OHAYO! I don't know. Hi?

College starts next week. ._. I felt I didn't have much of a summer. Maybe it's just my bad memory. I recall working mor than anything to be truthful, but it's scary to think that tomorrow is the first day of September. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE September. Because I love fall..yupyup. But ugh, I'm not ready for college or any education yet. x_x

The books are purchased, the tuition is paid, and the student continues to work to pay for these finances. But oh well. Like I mentioned in my last deciation, I felt as if I didn't use much of my time to really draw. I'm always at work, out with my boyfriend/friends, or sleeping. Catching up on sleep. Then there's the casual heroine side of me that feels the need to save the world, one problem at a time.

I think the other bad thing, that one would assume to be good, is that I age in September..well, more like October. I turn 18 on the 30th of September and I really don't want to. This is just a poor excuse for guys to attempt to rape me. ._.

But the sooner I turn 18, the more I'm allowed to do. Being 17, going to college, having a lot of work experience under my belt, looking like I'm 19 years old and trying so ahrd to be independent and mature (perhaps I am without trying, who knows..) doesn't work out well when you're 17.

"Everyone hates you when you're 17, loves you, but expects more when you're 18, and when you're 19, no one cares."

I get my driver's license in October hopefully! n_n I hate driving, but I can't stand depending on people for rides to work and school anymore. I need freedom. T________T Driving scares me "uberly", but I'll have to deal. And I wuv my car; it's cute and crappy. n_n

So things to look forward (or one expects someone to look forward to) in the next 6 weeks hopefully:

-college starting (even though it's only county for now)
-18th birthday
-a wedding perhaps.
-a concert next month? maybes???
-driver's license
-yay for working and school..back-to-back..again. haha.
-first day of fall n_n
-no new hair color

For now though, I'm aggravated. I always point out the male sex (sorry!), but it actually is. XD Why do people expect me to not give up on something when retaliated? Did you want me to get frustrated? You say "no", and I finally back off; don't expect me to go any further. ._.

And I hate recalling nightmares as of right now. When it's the same thing..over..and over..AND OVER. This makes no sense. I'm stressed for once and having an icky week. Godo week, but icky.

peaces!